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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Frustration
I miss my old freaking blog! I hate the name of this one - its stupid. GRRRRRRR
I am going to open the old one for a few days and see if any hits from people I don't want to check it - check it! Because I am just not feeling this one.
I am going to open the old one for a few days and see if any hits from people I don't want to check it - check it! Because I am just not feeling this one.
Tuesday Thoughts
Lots of things running through my freshly blond head today:
- The season finale of 24 SUCKED! I do not like how it ended!
- Pondering if the Ed Norton lookalike likes me, because here is the short list of antics he did on Saturday while at the firehouse: he wanted to be my partner for CPR stuff, threw paper at me when we had Infectious Disease Control class, while sitting next to him for CPR - when his phone would vibrate he would sit it on my shoulder, would do crazy things to the manikin to make me crack up laughing.........hmmmmmm.
- Wondering what the rule is when going out with the girls - when it comes to flirting and picking up guys? If you are flirting with a guy first, is it ok if your friend flirts with him too? I am out to lunch on this one. This happened to me a few times recently. Not sure what to think and/or how to proceed.
- Have to cancel some of my summer trips to the beach because of financial shit - not happy about that. Was suppose to go to VA Beach and NC in June - not going to happen now. Very sad about this.
- I like working at the firehouse over my everyday job, a career change would be a massive pay cut, but a nice new hobby it is.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
My heart fell into my stomach
After an interview I had this morning, I went home and changed out of my suit. I needed to stop by the rental office to take care of some business. Guess who walks in like 5 minutes later............demon boy. He glared at me, I glared at him, we didn't speak to each other. I finished up what I had to do and went on my way.
When I got back home, I noticed I was shaking and felt nauseous. I also felt like crying, but fought like hell not to cry. I thought I was over him, but seeing him (he looked like shit by the way) all the bad memories came flooding back - not the good ones mind you.
I wonder if I will get some drunken text message or call from him now. NO I will not be picking up or answering it. But, it seems like something he would do.
It is what it is.
When I got back home, I noticed I was shaking and felt nauseous. I also felt like crying, but fought like hell not to cry. I thought I was over him, but seeing him (he looked like shit by the way) all the bad memories came flooding back - not the good ones mind you.
I wonder if I will get some drunken text message or call from him now. NO I will not be picking up or answering it. But, it seems like something he would do.
It is what it is.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Ten Years Ago, I was in my Quarterlife Crisis
Ten years ago, I was 25 getting ready to be 26 and I was in a career funk. I decided to write this post mainly to tell the current twenty somethings - Don't Worry! If you are in a crisis, you will get through it!
I graduated college a little late due to the fact I changed majors four times, Political Science to Nursing to English to Criminal Justice. I worked on a major Republican Gubernatorial campaign and took a year off from school to focus on that as well. I did earn 12 credits for internship for that though. After that campaign, I was burned out on politics and after changing majors to nursing and English - I decided Criminal Justice was the best route for me. My goal was to be an ATF Agent - I did two internships with the local police and a federal law enforcement agency. However, due to a hiring freeze with the feds I was stuck working at an ice rink. That is when my crisis per say went into effect.
I am a huge ice hockey fan and Louisville was getting ready to get their first American Hockey League team - the Louisville Panthers. I decided to apply for a job in their sales department, because criminal justice careers were pissing me off. I got the job and was extremely eager and thinking that maybe I could go work for an NHL team. Let me just say, the three months I worked for that team were hell. COMPLETE UTTER HELL! I worked for assholes and they kept firing people for slow sales. Well um HELLO - Kentucky is not a hockey state - its a basketball and horse racing state. I got wind I may be the next to let go and ended up getting a job as Assistant Manager at Victoria's Secret, so I left hockey not knowing what the hell I wanted to do. I lasted at Victoria's Secret all of two weeks because it wasn't for me and I ended up quitting and was unemployed for a month.
I was starting to put applications in with local, state and federal law enforcement agencies, however in the meantime I decided to go work for the State of Kentucky in the court system. I actually really liked my job there, it was interesting, the pay - it sucked I only made $18,500 a year and had to get a second job at a Beauty Salon to help with rent and my car payment. Well finally in 2000, I got the phone call after all the police testing, physical fitness testing, interviews, I finally got hired! I was out of my crisis and starting my career -- I enter my ninth year of government service come August. I never made it to ATF, but I have worked for some amazing agencies and with some amazing people. I have experienced amazing things and tragedies (9/11). Do I have any regrets? Yes, working for that hockey team, but it is what it is.
Some ask now if I am entering a pre mid life crisis because I have taken on the EMT thing - am I bored at work? Yes, but that is because I sit behind a desk and I am an adrenaline junkie.
So to my friends in their 20's - enjoy! If you find yourself in a rut, you will get out of it! I am in a panick that I am about to be 40 in 4 years -- I am getting the crazy questions like "Where is your husband? and Where are your kids?" Good questions -- I don't know and if it is meant to be, it will happen hopefully.
I graduated college a little late due to the fact I changed majors four times, Political Science to Nursing to English to Criminal Justice. I worked on a major Republican Gubernatorial campaign and took a year off from school to focus on that as well. I did earn 12 credits for internship for that though. After that campaign, I was burned out on politics and after changing majors to nursing and English - I decided Criminal Justice was the best route for me. My goal was to be an ATF Agent - I did two internships with the local police and a federal law enforcement agency. However, due to a hiring freeze with the feds I was stuck working at an ice rink. That is when my crisis per say went into effect.
I am a huge ice hockey fan and Louisville was getting ready to get their first American Hockey League team - the Louisville Panthers. I decided to apply for a job in their sales department, because criminal justice careers were pissing me off. I got the job and was extremely eager and thinking that maybe I could go work for an NHL team. Let me just say, the three months I worked for that team were hell. COMPLETE UTTER HELL! I worked for assholes and they kept firing people for slow sales. Well um HELLO - Kentucky is not a hockey state - its a basketball and horse racing state. I got wind I may be the next to let go and ended up getting a job as Assistant Manager at Victoria's Secret, so I left hockey not knowing what the hell I wanted to do. I lasted at Victoria's Secret all of two weeks because it wasn't for me and I ended up quitting and was unemployed for a month.
I was starting to put applications in with local, state and federal law enforcement agencies, however in the meantime I decided to go work for the State of Kentucky in the court system. I actually really liked my job there, it was interesting, the pay - it sucked I only made $18,500 a year and had to get a second job at a Beauty Salon to help with rent and my car payment. Well finally in 2000, I got the phone call after all the police testing, physical fitness testing, interviews, I finally got hired! I was out of my crisis and starting my career -- I enter my ninth year of government service come August. I never made it to ATF, but I have worked for some amazing agencies and with some amazing people. I have experienced amazing things and tragedies (9/11). Do I have any regrets? Yes, working for that hockey team, but it is what it is.
Some ask now if I am entering a pre mid life crisis because I have taken on the EMT thing - am I bored at work? Yes, but that is because I sit behind a desk and I am an adrenaline junkie.
So to my friends in their 20's - enjoy! If you find yourself in a rut, you will get out of it! I am in a panick that I am about to be 40 in 4 years -- I am getting the crazy questions like "Where is your husband? and Where are your kids?" Good questions -- I don't know and if it is meant to be, it will happen hopefully.
EMT Fun Part One in a Million Part Series
Last night was my second night on duty and I had to work at another station, first I was excited because it is the station of the Ed Norton lookalike that I am smitten with. When I saw him last night he greeted me with a "Hey Girl!" That is when I turned into a puddle of goo. He has the bluest eyes - they are amazing!!! (Disclaimer for Brett: He does kind of have that alien shaped head going) hahaha.
Anyway, my crew though, that is another story. We all know I am an Alpha female, but I am actually nice (I know that is debatable). I was stuck with Super EMT Alpha Female last night, that had NO freaking (see NO) patience whatsoever. Another probie (short probationary EMT) and I were kind of tired of her snapping at us every few minutes. So when we got assigned radios, she started talking to us like children on how to use them, well they were exact same radios I had when I was cop. I guess she thought my finger was getting ready to press a button, so she snatched the radio and quickly turned off. I looked at her like she was loony and said "Um, I know how to use this type of radio" Now interesting enough after that, she was nice to me the rest of night.
However, I am glad that isn't my permanent house, because she would be hard to work with - two Alpha females just don't mesh well in the mix. The other probie decided she wasn't going to do jackshit the rest of the night, which was annoying because then I did double duty. It is what it is and I will learn more anyway.
I didn't see much of Ed Norton look alike the rest of the night, because we were super busy. It was like low blood sugar night last night -- every call had that issue just about. I am dragging ass today, because I just can't sleep at the firehouse -- for one its noisy and second bed isn't comfortable.
I have training tonight and this weekend -- hopefully Ed look alike will be at both :-)
Anyway, my crew though, that is another story. We all know I am an Alpha female, but I am actually nice (I know that is debatable). I was stuck with Super EMT Alpha Female last night, that had NO freaking (see NO) patience whatsoever. Another probie (short probationary EMT) and I were kind of tired of her snapping at us every few minutes. So when we got assigned radios, she started talking to us like children on how to use them, well they were exact same radios I had when I was cop. I guess she thought my finger was getting ready to press a button, so she snatched the radio and quickly turned off. I looked at her like she was loony and said "Um, I know how to use this type of radio" Now interesting enough after that, she was nice to me the rest of night.
However, I am glad that isn't my permanent house, because she would be hard to work with - two Alpha females just don't mesh well in the mix. The other probie decided she wasn't going to do jackshit the rest of the night, which was annoying because then I did double duty. It is what it is and I will learn more anyway.
I didn't see much of Ed Norton look alike the rest of the night, because we were super busy. It was like low blood sugar night last night -- every call had that issue just about. I am dragging ass today, because I just can't sleep at the firehouse -- for one its noisy and second bed isn't comfortable.
I have training tonight and this weekend -- hopefully Ed look alike will be at both :-)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
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