Insomnia

It's back, I can't sleep again -- why you ask? Things are bugging me -- work, money, work and money again.

I am bored at work and trying to figure out how to word the transfer letter. My job is not exciting anymore, I do redundant crap and deal with assholes from another agency that have to read what I put out. This other agency must have "Assholes Apply Here" in their posting on usajobs. Well wait, I worked for them for 5 months, but I left because of the asshole factor. So am I an asshole? Maybe.

I am just in a work funk - I do however look forward to going to EMT duty tonight -- that excites me. Where I am at right now, currently writing this post, BORED OUT OF MY FREAKING MIND!!!!

The money factor - it is what it is - I have had to cancel some fun stuff lately because of it. I won't be going to Rock on the Range this coming weekend because of money, won't be going home to Louisville because of money. The light is at the end of the tunnel. For now -- more boring weekends eating Tombstone Pizza (usually 4 for 10 bucks) and watching bad movies (Revolver, love you Jason Statham, but that movie just sucked).

Positive

The post a lot of people have been waiting for. I am completely over that person I uesd to blog about for the past six months. It feels good and I feel happy.

I think I have done a lot of positive things lately, make new friends with positive, happy people. Weed out the toxic ones and joining the fire department.

I don't have any family here and joining the fire department is going to give me that sense of family I miss. I have classes tomorrow in CPR and Infectious Disease Control. Pretty excited to go to class actually.

I just wanted to share some happy thoughts and a positive post for a change!!!

Action

Last night was FUN! Not too busy, but enough to keep me entertained. Two auto accidents, no fatals, and a flu. I entertained my new crew with a song about the swine flu on the way to pick the lady up to take her to the hospital. I am a good fit with my new crew and they are hilarious. It is hard to sleep at the firehouse, because of the noise and well it was freezing cold.

I have a crush - he is at another fire house, he looks like Ed Norton, he is new as well - he is adorable. We chatted a few times last night on calls, but we were both busy. I will see him Saturday at CPR class. Need to give him a nickname?

Before you guys ask - there is no fire pole at the house and there is no Dalmatian. However, I am allowed to have friends over anytime and we cook out a lot. So - with that anytime I am working, my friends are welcome to come visit.

Nervous

Tonight is my first overnight shift doing the volunteer EMT thing. My uniform is ready to go, but I am a bit nervous. New people, new squad to get used to. It's almost like being a police officer again. Luckily, two of the girls I went through orientation with will be there as well and are on my same squad. So, there will be some familiar faces.

Anyway, last night I had the unfortunate opportunity to see the ex's (we won't use his old name on here for security purposes) new girlfriend. She is the complete opposite of me in every way. Just picture skeletor with a brown wig. She has no figure, no chest, no hips, no ass, she looks strung out actually. I won't lie, seeing her bothered me - not sure why.

Well anyway, back to work, keep your fingers crossed for me tonight - I will post updates on twitter from time to time of what is going on at the firehouse.

Friendships

They come and go - some peacefully and some not so peacefully. I never expected in my adult life to have one end so explosive.
Actually never in my life has one ever ended with so much drama. In the past year I feel like drama is constantly in my life - men, friends, or work.


I want this drama cloud to go away! Any suggestions? Have you ever had an explosive end to a friendship?



All advice welcome!

Exhausted

This has been an exhausting past couple of days: getting ready for my first night working EMT for tomorrow night, dealing with unnecessary elementary school drama, putting together this blog, and other stuff.

I fell asleep watching 24 last night, that never happens. So you can see, I am EXHAUSTED.
My EMT pants (which are super cute cargo's versus the ugly issued ones) will be here this afternoon. I just have to figure out how to hem them. I bought the hemming tape and a needle and thread just in case. I am a disaster when it comes to sewing. In home economics class in high school, I paid someone to finish my skirt I was making.

Anyway, I am super excited to work my first 12 hour shift with my new squad beginning Wednesday night. Since the forecast calls for rain, I am sure we will be busy.

I am thinking of a planning a happy hour in the next few weeks - interested parties email me at conservativerockergirl at gmail.com or the old email address if you have it.

Welcome and Excuse the Mess

Welcome to the blog, hopefully this will be drama free and happy :-)

I really have nothing to say as of right now.

I didn't spell well in my last post haha..........

Happy Rainy Monday All!